Affirmations

What I want: I want to learn what is going on as a whole at the counter I work at in the supermarket. I want to be able to look people in the eyes. The behavior to achieve that are: Ask my colleagues tomorrow. Watch and learn before the 4th. Be confident. Have high self esteem. What thoughts do I have to think to achieve that: I can do it. All I need is experience and time. I am confident. ....will this really work????????????

LOL

First day @ supermarket

So today was my first actual day at the supermarket. I went yesterday too but the lady told us the rules and we didn't actually deal with customers. This job is my first one that I have to face customers so I was pretty nervous. I wasn't taught anything practical... We were only told what to say in various situations. All I did today were:

• lurk around the counter.


• Piss off customers because they were kept waiting and I couldn't do anything about it because I didn't have the number to the cashier machine & I wasn't told how to do it.


• Put items into various sizes of bags and sometimes I chose the wrong size and had to re-do it and the customers got frustrated.


• Fold some bags to kill time.


• Not be sure if the other person who was beeping the items had beeped all the items (that's not good... So not good).

I didn't have a clue that the job of a cashier was so stressful! I received my shift plan and I only have to until April 18th (12 days in total including today and yesterday). I think that's kind of enough for me... I'll get enough education so that I don't have to work at a supermarket for the rest of my life...

Thought this was really interesting...

...Capitalism.... Way to make a nice interesting video complicating....

Obviously, stuff that sells well will only be sold in a capitalistic economy.

Things sell when people want it, right?

Example of invisible stuff...? I don't have magic eyes!!
Umm... Truth... maybe?

TRUTH PLEASE BE TOLD ON JAPANESE MEDIA, THANK YOU!


btw Happy birthday, lady gaga!! iloveyou!!!!

Why dirtywhiteboi67 means nothing to me.

If you don't know who dirtywhiteboi67 (aka Dirt) is, I suggest you take a look at her blog. In short, she is a notorious FTM-hating "butch lesbian" who publicly humiliates FTMs who document their transition on YouTube. She is extremely famous among the FTM community.

I used to get really upset about the blog but now it means nothing to me. Dirt thinks FTMs are against feminism. According to her twitter account, she is a "43 year old intelligent HOT Butch lesbian." That alone makes her lame.

The facts are:

1. Homosexuals can't judge transgenderism because it's not the same and it's simply impossible to understand what it's like to be transgendered if you aren't one.


2. Being FTM has absolutely nothing to do with political views such as feminism. True FTMs have felt like an FTM since before we even knew such a thing as feminism.


3. Dirt writes: "Are you are feeling confused or ashamed? If you are confused about your identity, sexual orientation, feeling pressured to transition, hate your body, wanting to de-transition you can contact me any time day or night. Email me at (dirt's e-mail address) No judgments. Caring free advice from someone who isn't going to lie to you." If Dirt tries to define a stranger's sexuality (not gender identity because she doesn't believe in transgenderism.), then she is judging a person just by a mere e-mail which is obviously impossible. If some confused queer/questioning person asks for Dirt's advice, then they won't get a rightful answer. Dirt's views are prejudiced, ignorant and filled with bullshit. Only you can find out your own identity. YOU know about yourself more than anyone else. Sexuality/gender identity can be confusing sometimes but that just has to be figured out by yourself. Who you are will become clear over time. Nobody else other than yourself can define yourself.


4. Dirt needs to understand that FTMs have a close relationship with lesbians because we had to identify as a lesbian before we knew there was something called transgenders. We aren't trying to take over the lesbian community or anything.

Just because Dirt hates men doesn't mean she has to spread hate. Minorities get enough shit. Stop hating and stop being an attention whore and get a job.

Good things that have happened to me.

I'm surrounded by supportive people.

Quake Photos

Just for the record...

3 Things I want

I want to be confident.

I want to look forward to the future.

I want to be outgoing.

Gratitude list

I am grateful that my family is alive.
I am grateful for my money that I have now and the money I'm going to earn int he future.
I am grateful for the job at the supermarket.
I am grateful for the Internet connection in my house.
I am grateful that my house wasn't washed away by the tsunami.
I am grateful that my Hewlett Packard makes really good PCs.

TMI

http://www.truth-out.org/tokyo-electric-build-us-nuclear-plants-the-no-bs-info-japans-disastrous-nuclear-operators68457

http://search.japantimes.co.jp/cgi-bin/fl20040523x2.html

https://self-evident.org/?p=893

Nobody knows the truth. So I stopped bothering.

Dust

We don't know what the hell it is, but there's mysterious dust around here. It could be nothing. Just dust blown up because of the strong wind. I don't know. It's just really weird.

Lists

10 things I appreciate in my life:

1. I have a PC and Internet connection.
2. I can talk to my parents and relatives.
3. I have a home and a bed.
4. I have food, water, and electricity.
5. Hannah talks to me and she doesn't think I'm crazy.
6. My PC understands what I'm saying.
7. I might be getting a really good job.
8. Adam Lambert has a nice voice.
9. I have 2 seasons worth of Lost to watch.
10. I have a nice wallpaper.

10 things I want to accomplish:

1. Get testosterone and top surgery.
2. Succeed in university.
3. Make friends.
4. Work as a translator or have a job that I enjoy and has a good pay.
5. Have 2 well-behaved dogs.
6. Live with someone I like.
7. Be happy.
8. Not have constipation.
9. Publish a book about myself.
10. Live somewhere other than Japan.

A letter to myself.

Hey Shane on March 14th 2011,

You'll never guess that I was going to have such an amazing year. This year has been the most amazing year of my life. I am SO glad that I came to the UK to study. Not like my friends who went to boring old Japanese universities. I've been able to make lots of friends from various countries and of course British friends too. I hang out with the guys like a regular university guy. Although I don't drink or smoke at all! I haven't even gained weight!! I haven't been discriminated because of my high voice. The good news is, I've been on T for over 4 months and my voice has completely deepened. You wouldn't believe how low it is. I've been successful with studying in foundation year. I needn't have worried that I've forgotten all I studied in high school. The stuff we do in foundation year is not as hard as I thought. I haven't felt depressed or hurt myself. In fact, everyday is filled with happy new exciting experiences! All my relatives was fine about the name change. They didn't really mind. I have a job that I enjoy and I've saved up enough for my top surgery AND I've already book the date for it!! How cool is that!?!?! But the best thing that's happened to me doesn't compare to all this. It's the fact that I have someone who is really special to me and the person thinks the same way about me. And for once, it isn't your mother. Every time I think of that person or do things with that person, I feel happier than words can express.

Shane from March 14th 2012.

Becoming happy

I just registered to www.15strategies.com and will do the 15 things to become a happy person.

My current wallpaper

It's a simple picture but it took a while to actually get it. I think this is pure humor. Whoever came up with this picture is a comedic genius!!!!!!!!!!!!

Left-over pasta

I made this the day before yesterday, I think.
I used left over ham, parsley, mushrooms, Italian sauce, and clotted cream.
These had to be all used because they were all past the best before end date. (like most of the stuff in our fridge, apparently!!)